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One Day Robots Will Cry

"I'm back after all these years, don't be afraid my dear, now I'm older."

Hi, old blog :') it's me. Still me. After a year and several months.. I'm back.

"Yeah I'm still a kid, eventhough I'm colder."


Life has been quite mediocre.
Some update maybe required. Well here they are:
- I live in Surabaya now (I'm posting this from Jakarta though)
- 17 years young.
- On my way to grade 12.
- In love with someone and it's complicated.
- Still in a rage love with Star Wars and The Beatles.
- Will have a trip to Germany, France, and Switzerland this summer.

I Still Have the Guts to Do This I Think

WHY I MUST BE IN THE SCIENCE CLASS

http://www.roadtransport.com/blogs/big-lorry-blog/2011/02/mercedes-benz-trucks-of-the-fu.html#more

That's my Uncle Andy Sugata.
Now that I want to be like that, I must be in the science class for the 11th grade.
Please help me with math. PLEASE.

Bestfriends Are Perfect Rivals

HEYYA! HAVEN'T TOUCHED THIS BLOG SINCE DECADES AGO! OH I MISS YOU.
Btw Happy New Year Alles! :D
I am gonna make a tribute for all my bestfriends for being so good to me. But I don't know how to make something cool so I just typing here :D

First of all, I'd like to thank all my bestfriends, from two years of kindergarten, six years of elementary school, 3 years of junior high, and 6 months of highschool (cmon, I'm a newbe in highschool), and other friends outta school.


BESTFRIENDS ARE PERFECT RIVALS.
Oh this happened to me in JHS, in English course, and is happening to me in high school.

In JHS, my bestfriend and bestrival named Valerie. She and I were guitarists in the school band. That's the rival part and that's the bestfriend part. We laughed, we cried, we even fought! with Elisa too, we spent our 9th grade amazingly. She's a tough person. She had passion in art.

In SHS, this girl named Stefany Biantoro is totally having a genius brain. Maybe she is half Einstein or what. I've always looked up to her. She made me want to pass her scores. It gives me more self motivation. I want to thank her. And I am so proud my English mark is higher than her ;) (OH THAT'S THE ONLY ONE MAN! ALL MY OTHER SCORES ARE BELOW HERS HAHA). With Vei Ling, my other bestfriend, we will be some kind of evil geniuses hahaha. Btw Vei Ling is the kindest person of three of us hahaha :D Very good at being with money ;)


BESTFRIENDS ARE PERFECT SISTERS.
I got this in JHS. Oh nice nice time. Crazy lazy time. What a life! I gotta mention many names, man! Ulla Pangaribuan, Vania Rompas, Jenny Riveria, Claudia Lesmana, Chelsea Sari, Rhea Levina, Rani Olivia, Diana Silvana, Clarissa Ardra, Aggy Agatha, Jessica Noorsita and Febyane are the best among the very best girls.

Ulla. Mom, sister, devil, in a same person. Work hard, party harder. A good adviser to me. Crazy like hell. Mad as a bull. Wise as an owl. Funny. Sexy. Oia, good at economy and essay things. Met her in Santa Ursula JHS, class of 7.3.

Veve. She keeps the devil inside her beautiful face. Dance and keep dancing. Her mind is kinda dirty and somehow very funny. I wonder what is her brain made of.

Jenny. Dance in every breath she takes. Somehow innocent (I don't admit it though).

CL. A good artist. Very patient. Smart and funny at the same time (I rarely found this type of person). A girl with no anger. Diligent and a sweet pupil. I don't know how she ended up playing with us haha.

Chelsea. A total kind person. Good at laughing and design.
Rhea. A total ass. Insane. Lunatic. I gave applause to her photographs.
Rani. Nice kid type. I remember how she laughed and mocked people ;)
Diana. An excellent artist. Her trophies made her house full.
Isa. An awesome basketball player. White-hearted person. Truly a nice girl.
Aggy. The most plain girl I've ever met. I like her style. Cool. Good at basketball.
Noor. I remembered we got crazy with Ariyani and Maya :D Very nice time!
Feby. An awesome musician. Totally a big sis to me.


BESTFRIENDS WITH COINCIDENCE.
Ah I have only one super friend with this type. Khanza Defeorenzia Salsabila.
First time I know her, she was me, somehow. We had so much things in common. But as we knew each other, I found so much different things between us. Her English is high rated. She is good at quotes, critics, sarcastic sentences. A good photographer. A nice person. Mature and tough. A good motivator in my life.


THE OLD BESTFRIENDS.
But still, you had been my bestfriends, some time in my life. Maybe now we're not bestfriends anymore or what, I don't care. I'll feel regret if I don't post your name here :')

Elementary school bestfriends.
Alexandro Akbar Carrero. Ero. You were lovely! You were and still are a unique person. I thank God because He let me be friends wit you. You are a religious person until now I hope :)
Maria Yuliana Hendrika. Corry. You are one in the world, girl! I miss you btw. I remember how we played in front of the class :)
Maria. Although our last relationship was not too good, I thank you. And I am sorry :)
Cindy Yorza. I remember, you were good to me. I am sorry :) We were closed some time in the elementary school.
Daniel Dionisius. I don't know if I can call you bestfriend or not. You are a nice guy. Keep being nice.
Vania Angelina. We were bestfriends from the 4th grade or something.I remember playing in your house ;)


BESTFRIENDS I CAN'T SAY THE TYPE. (Cause they're very random)
Gadiza Olivia, Yosia, Zenia. You three are crazy. Nothing to say. You are older than me and crazier than me.




And the last, my bestfriend for at least 5years. Daniel Antonius Pasaribu :) Nothing to describe. you are the best of all.

'God Bless Ye Merry Gentlemen'

Heyya fellas!
Just recover from my chickenpox thing.
And I must do the final exams all alone cos everyone has finished by now.
And OSIS 2010-2011 presents Classmeeting 2010 on this Thu til Sat

Btw it's nearly Christmas!
Am enjoying Coldplay's Christmas Lights. Cooooool

And what I want for this Christmas are:
- coming home savely
- beatles things as I always want
- Maroon5 ticket (which was sold out in 1day. Fuck.)
- meeting with some good old buddies
- and a new bag. My orange Nike bag is totally broken :(
- more shoes shoes and shoes
- The Beatles Rock Band for PSP
- new swatch
- clothes
Etcetera

I think these weren't Christmas wish list but also birthday wish list ha ha
Yea whatever
Just saying, not hoping to much

God Bless You All, sleepyheads!
Have a great Christmas

Btw today (Dec8) is the celebration of John Lennon's death.



Kay, see yah!
Iloveyoudearsomeone :]

LDKS Luar Kota CPO SMA Santa Maria Surabaya

FRIDAY, OCTOBER 22

We departed from our school at 6.30 in the morning. Using public transportation (bus, bemo), me and 5 of my friends went to a place somewhere in Pacet from Surabaya. We were the 1st group to go.
Arrived at Narwastu, we built a camp. Not too successful but nice enough.
Then after all groups arrived, we went to explore the place. There were some stops. The games in every stops were AMAZING.
We got some lessons too that day. Theories. meh.
Oia that day was Pak Wiwid birthday so the teachers did some craziness ;)


SATURDAY, OCTOBER 23
In the morning we went for another adventure. NICE. CAN'T WRITE HERE. NOT ENOUGH. HAHA.
In the afternoon we must make our own event. The event was outdoor, but it was suddenly raining so that we had to move indoor. And I was the MC. I was very sad because I made a lot of mistakes :(
Then at night we, one by one, alone, by ourselves, walked around that place, in the darkness. Kinda scary. But nothing happened ;)

SUNDAY, OCTOBER 24
Went home aaaaaa how I love the floor! We hardly found floors in Narwastu. Just soil. haha. We went home using a truck. nice and tiring.

I love LDKS nyaaa :D

Jealousy Kills

Don't be jealous. It will kill you. Like it killed me.

For example:
If you want to kill your girlfriend, don't shoot her in her head. Sleep with another girl. She'll kill herself.

I am jealous. To my friends who are still in Jakarta.
To their new friends who are taking my position.
To every men and women who have a greater life than me.
To every living creatures.

Stop bein jealous, keep living.
Be jealous, you're dead.

I am trying not to kill myself.

And I, love you so much, dear you-know-who-you-are.

Don't let me down.

This is out of range.
So bye.

Coincidence

DEAR KHANZA DEFEORENZIA SALSABILA, HOW COME I HAVE A SIMILAR LIFE WITH YOU?
I MEAN, FROM THE BEGINNING,
WE LOVED GEORGE HARRISON,
WE SUPPORT GERMANY (THE FOOTBALL TEAM AND THE COACH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA),
AND WHEN MY CAMERA BROKE DOWN, YOURS TOO,
AND WHEN I LIKED ......, YOU TOO,
AND AND AND...
AND NOW, MY FRIEND ***** **, YOUR FRIEND TOO,
MANY THINGS HAPPENED.
ONE THING I HAVE TO ASK YOU: WHO ARE YOU HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*annoying orange mood*

I MISS YOU DEAR BLOGGGGGG!!!!

LDKS Dalam Kota SMA Santa Maria Surabaya

Saturday, October 9.

In the morning, our school had an edufair event. Besides, we got our mid-term report.
In the afternoon, at 2 p.m., we (all of the CPO or Calon Pengurus OSIS) attended the LDKS (Latihan Dasar Kepemimpinan Siswa). It was the 3rd step before we become the pengurus OSIS.

In the beginning, kita dikasih training2 tentang how to make a proper formal letter kemaren itu proposal dan LPJ, etc etc. Then after the materi selesai, we played some games and we cooked our own dinner. And we must eat these ingredients such as petai, paprika, kangkung, dll. After we ate (btw, for your information, we skipped mandi), we did some prayer.

The interestiing thing was when Kakak OSIS nya started shouting. She, I mean they, told us that we was soooooo wrong. After that, we were told to wait on the 4th floor. Then the highlight of the day happened:

We, one by one, must walk in the dark, (and FYI again, our school is 60 years old and it may contain...umm, ghosts?) and stopped at several spot yang dijaga sama Kakak2 OSIS. Me, I was the 3rd girl who did this.
1st stop, I WAS SO SHOCKED. It was Pak Wiwid our math teacher. Man! He was just sat there in the corner of the 3rd floor lorong and... oh yeah I thought he was 'something else'.
The rest of the stops were nice. I did this pretty good man. But no doubt I was a little bit scaredddd.

Then we slept hahahahahahahahahaha not a nice sleep but yeah cukup.


Sunday, October 10.

I the morning, I took a bath. Some of my friends didn't, but I did. Then at 6o'clock we dapet materi lagi dari Bu Rosa. After that, we must run to a park. Let's say, it was kinda far I think. I felt regret because I already took a bath.

Then we got a task to make some money. So our team helped a bapak2 to sell gorengan and some breads. And Thank God there is Kak Ganda in our team. He speaks Javanese so well so that some people interested in buying our dagangan.

After that we ate some breakfast. Thank God it was real and nice food. The food we ate the night before was kinda lame. We learned to be sederhana.

Then we had games. There were 5 posts to play. The 1st one was this game: we must close our eyes with a tie. Then 1person told us to walk to a right direction so that we didn't make the bottles (which were set up as ranjau) fall down.
The 2nd one, errr one word: WET. Yeah we played with water.
The 3rd was so physical depression. We must menyusun bangku and rapihin lagi dalam waktu yang sangat singkat.
The 4th was like a usual outbound game. We must walk on a rope, yah begitulah.
And the 5th ya hanya main berdiri sambil punggung2an and so on.

The last thing to do was evaluasi. yeaah yeah. finished.


Nice (and tiring) two days.

i am no more me

I can't find myself in today's me.
Since I moved here to Surabaya from Jakarta.

I was the class' disaster.
I was in the band.
I was one of those basketball players.
I was the clown of the class.
I was the unbrained-one.
I used to bring my SLR and mess the school up.
I used to shout and throw the jokes all the time.
I used to be the most naughty student of that All-Girl-School.
I used to fight with most of the teachers.
I used to break some unwritten rules.
I used to be known all over the school as the bad one.
But,
I am quite silent now.
I don't play basketball. No more.
I don't join any band, or haven't joined any band.
I just keep my SLR to myself.
I am the nice girl.
I am the one who keep myself clean.
I am not known.
I keep my jokes to myself.
I study.
I am not known as anyone.

I want the old me if I could.
Or, am I changing naturally?
Or maybe I have two mode.
1. Jakarta mode: Funny, clown, crazy, insane, stupid ass, rock and roll, do some sport.
2. Surabaya mode: Prety serious, quite silent, study more, not funny, boring.

Oh c'mon.
See yah.

17an

Last Friday and Saturday (13-14 Aug) we had this 17an thing at my school.
There were some games such as: Bakiak+Makan krupuk, cari koin di dalem tepung sambil balap karung, futsal daster, estafet belut, tarik tambang, masak, cerdas cermat.
3of my friends and I joined the estafet belut thing. And became the runner-up.
And we became the champion of the cerdas cermat. Hihi.
You can check the photos on my facebook ;)

And today, we had this quiz at TBI. Haha. 17an Quiz.
My group was the loser --"
Oia, btw thanks Peter for the DVD. I borrowed his DVD, Across the Universe :) BEATLES!
And I was excited about our new teacher. He was from England. He is SUPER tall.
Yeah we'll see him again on next Tuesday ;)


Btw,
This morning Mr. Dennis looked at my agenda and he found this writing of mine, it said 'iloveyouD'
Ok the D is for Daniel. He could guess it right.
But his name is Dennis, jesus, I just realized.
It begins with letter D too. Damn -___-"
That writing was for Daniel okay.

HAPPY 65th BIRTHDAY INDONESIA! MERDEKA!!!

bad connection

Xl gue kenapa sih gabisa terima sms dari esianya si danil. sedihnya.
Udah dari minggu loh. :( aaaaaaa

(: D YRASREVINNA YPPAH

Happy 11th y.o birthday to my brother Dominic Glenn Sebastian.

Happy friendship day!

The End of July

Morning.
This morning, my school bell rang at 7.30, as every other Saturday.
I arrived at school at 7.00 and my pals asked me to go to McDondalds.
The McD was just some steps away from my school. Haha.
After that we went to school.
But at 9, the teachers got an emergency bell, so we went home, earlier.
We all went to that nearest McD again! Almost all of us haha.


Afternoon.
I went out for lunch.
Sushi Tei :)
Then,
I spent my afternoon watching movies.
1. The Last Airbender.
That was great. Aaaaaaa. Aaaaaa.
I've watched the cartoon series, so I enjoyed this movie so much.
I like the kissing scene of Sokka and Princess Yue. OOPS SPOILER.

2. Let it Be
The Beatles. Oh no need to speak a thing.
Everything about The Beatles are always awesome.
I like when Paul and George argued. Ckckck. Cool.
And when Paul and Ringo played that effing awesome song on the piano, duet.
And when John kissed Yoko. And they danced.
Etc etc.
Awwww I love George Harrison THAT much!!!! Aaaaaaa

3. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.
I am not a Harry Potter maniac.... So I just watched this movie today.
I like Ron Weasley. He's way better than Harry I think.
And I like Draco Malfoy. And I like Professor Lupin.
And nothing else.
Cool. Nice.
I'm not into Harry Potter..


Evening.
Just went to the supermarket with mom dad and bro.
Now I'm just here writing on my blog.

My pacar doesn't have any pulsa today so...
Ah whatever. Cepetan beli pulsa ye pacar haha LOL.

And my classmate is attending Slash' gig NOW, AT THE MOMENT.
And so are my TBI teachers. Bule2 itu are watching Slash.
(TBI: The British Institute, some kind of english course.)



Bye.bye.